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(no subject) [Aug. 28th, 2006|10:37 pm]
[mood |crushedcrushed]



nothing to say here anymore really.
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(no subject) [Apr. 6th, 2006|03:02 am]
[mood |contemplativecontemplative]
[music |none]

I guess I should start writing again. It is a good way to unload all the restless thoughts that keep me awake. Right now I am in a weird place. My flatmates are all gone for a few days, and I have time off work, so I have too much time to ponder things. I havent been able to sleep well too since someone tried to break into the flat. Now we have someone sleeping in the stairwell, and some creepy guy keeps buzzing (for the last 3 nights!!) I have told him to stop. I just have this uneasy feeling. I know its paranoid, but I feel something is going to happen.

Dmitry came over to watch a movie, "the constant gardner", after which I gently told him we should just be friends. I don't know what is wrong he is kind, ambitious, cute and just a good person. The sensible side of me should want him. I can picture what kind of life I would have with him. I would be happy. But I wouldn't have that love I need. I would rather be with someone who would and could break my heart, than someone who I know never could. weird huh. Dmitry could never hurt me because I could never care enough about him to be hurt by him.

what do I want? the question I have been asking myself. I dont know. what am I looking for? I don't know. I guess I dont really want to find anything. I want to be found. resucued. saved. stolen away.

dont get me wrong I am very happy. just too thinky. You know that song "love the one you're with". well that is pure bullshit. It should be "be with the one you love". One life here- and I am not waiting around to be with someone kind, nice and sensible. I want gut wrenchingly wonderfulness that only comes a few times in a lifetime but im willing to risk being alone so I know I will be available for the one. uh huh. :)

in other news. I think I am going to buy one of those hand held recorders so when I get story ideas but am too tired to write I can just record them.


(I miss you .) (you can break my heart.)
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(no subject) [Feb. 20th, 2006|03:58 am]
[mood |confusedconfused]
[music |chilli peppers]

Well I haven't updated in ages. I have been in Scotland for nearly three months. I do love it here. Worked a couple of different jobs so far but right now am trying to get 'cv building' jobs. So I am working at Lyon & Turnbull which pays well and is excellent experience for what I want to do. Unfortunately it is only every so often so I need to find work to squeeze in between. I am having an absolute blast with my flatmates. Dress like a celeb. party went off splendidly. Our next big bash is going to be a Rubic Cube party where we all switch clothes. :)

I joined a poker society which has been fun. I even met a boy. We have our second date this weekend but I am still not sure. I am still madly in love with the old boy :( And he still loves me? But I can't wait around for him. I need some big gesture from him. He said he might fly here over his spring break, but then if I am with a boy here then what do I do? It is all a bit confusing. He called me on Valentines. We hadn't spoken since I got here...and we talked and I realised I do want to be with him. I know I will see him over the summer but I can't put my life on pause for right now. Its aggravating.
I am picturing the summer to come and I see myself with him......so I don't know if this is unfair to the guy now.....or if I should talk to shea about it. I mean we don't owe eachother anything. But I don't really 'want' much from anyone else. This other boy is nice, and it will be fun. but it isn't camping by a stream listening to pink floyd.

I just need to make some choices about where I go in life. bah. Otherwise I have a date on tues. bar on wed. poker on thurs. party on fri. pr on sat......wheee. just wish I had more time and money.

Also I am applying for a coures for next term. wish me luck.
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I haven't updated in a while. I moved and am busy jobhunting. [Dec. 30th, 2005|12:27 am]
[mood |coldcold]

1. You have $10 and need to buy snacks at a gas station; what do you buy?
- Smartfood, Nantucket Nectar and a kit-kat.

2. If you had to be reincarnated as some sort of sea-dwelling creature, what would you be?
- hmm....sea turtle.

3. Who's your favorite redhead?
- Umm.....yeah.

4. What do you order when you're at a pancake house?
- Eggs. No I am not kidding. I hate pancakes. I like crepes however.

5. Do you own any... naughty toys?
- I should buy some?

6. Have you made out with anyone on your friends list?
- Perhaps.

7. Describe your favorite pair of underwear:
- cotton, boy cut.

8. Describe the last time you were injured:
- The big gash on my ankle might count. Caused by stupid (but sexy) shoes.

9. Are there any odd things that make you feel comfortable?
- toasties, to-do lists, the colour green.

10. A song that really describes how you feel about your life.
- Everybody I love you - CSNY

11. Tell me a weird story from your high school years:
- I tend to block out high school.

12. What is the wallpaper on your cell phone?
- The one it came with. A green apple. Thanks vodaphone for the complicated phone I don't know how to use properly.

13. Soda?
- I am trying not to drink soda. :) Only mixed with rum...occasionally...thanks to my flatmates.

14. Flavour of pudding?
- chocolate

15. What type of shirt are you wearing?
- red with a tiger on it. (pajamas)

16. Prescription medication?
- nothing at the moment.

17. If you could use only one form of transportation for the rest of your life, what would it be?
- plane. I couldn't imagine being trapped. I would just have to walk from coast to coast.

18. How many people are on your friends list?
- 35

19. How many people on your list do you know in real life?
- only a few

20. What are you listening to right now?
- nada.

21. Most recent movie you watched?
- "True Romance" by Q. Tarentino. Really fucked up but enjoyable film.

22. Name 5 things you have with you at all times:
- bag, keys, mobile, cash and gloves.

23. Would you rather give or receive a foot massage?
- receive.

24. Name a teacher you had the hots for:
- Schillinger

25. What is a saying that you use a lot?
- "Cool Beans" "Brilliant" "Latas"

26. What's one piece of advice that you think should be passed on to every child?
- try not to grow up to be stupid.
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interesting [Nov. 18th, 2005|12:30 am]


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IMDB's Top 100 Best Movies of All Time
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The ResultsCollapse )

Which movies have you seen?

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(no subject) [Nov. 17th, 2005|03:23 pm]
I just wanted you to know I'm not missing you yet.
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(no subject) [Nov. 16th, 2005|03:55 pm]
[mood |giddygiddy]
[music |Lifetime- Better than Ezra]

I think that it's funny that my itunes categorizes Taking Back Sunday songs as 'Blues'.

In other news I got my IPod and I am in love. It is so tiny and the sound is incredible. I am nearly finished packing for my new country of residence! My third continent and my fifth(?) country where I have spent more than 3 months. Ms. Schultz is heading to Costa Rica soon. Yay for being international gypsies. I still want to go to Egypt one day and some tiny Greek island.

I just downloaded "Lifetime" by Better than Ezra. Just a nice song. Makes me feel hopeful and happy. Okay bye people. Muchos love!
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(no subject) [Nov. 16th, 2005|01:24 am]
Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is a firestorm - full of intensity and drama.
Your thoughts may seem scattered to you most of the time...
But they often seem strong and passionate to those around you.
You are a natural influencer. The thoughts you share are very powerful and persuading.
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(no subject) [Nov. 12th, 2005|11:53 pm]
[mood |yayness]

wow I was naiveCollapse )

a post from over 3 years ago.... I was a happy skinny, nice girl who had just experience her first kiss. :) Now I am too skinny, with big wide sad green eyes and a bit of a sarcastic attitude about life. I need to become who I used to be. ( I still actually say 'Geeps' occasionally)

I was looking over old entries. Becky remember doing make-up with Alla in Young?? I had a post about that.

I think I am going to make a consicous choice to go back to the flakey girl I used to be and say "yayness" a lot.

In other news my IPOD is arriving tomorrow. My cute green coat arrived yesterday. I was bad and spent 330 on a coat (oops - pink cheeks) Well I earned the money so it okay. The Ipod is a christmas present
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:) [Nov. 11th, 2005|10:39 pm]
[mood |happyhappy]

movie linesCollapse )

I just fell in love with a film. The Ballad of Jack and Rose. It was haunting, tragic and disturbing but at the same time really sexual. The music, the tone and the simplicity of it all made me happy. Why do I think films like this are so beautiful when other people would see them as weird or disturbing?
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